lately ive been worrying every single day i feel like im not good enough at anything and i haven't achieved anything in life not only that, but i really wanted to go to college at 18. but im 18 now and i dont think ill be able to this year. because of money problems. and i cant get a job to save up because my mom wont let me and even if money wasnt a problem im afraid im not smart enough ive never really studied a whole bunch and im not a very hard worker and im starting to wish i tried harder i feel like its too late now i want to try harder but the thought of how far behind i am from everyone makes me not even wanna try. cause whats even the point if ill never be able to catch up? ive been blaming being home schooled(because you dont have a teacher and basically have to teach yourself everything) and my ADD, for my falling behind. but in reality ive just been lazy. its nothing elses fault but mine.
I also feel the same sometimes... As if I'm not good enough to have a decent future... and that there's nothing to be proud of out of the things I've done with my life so far. So I totally understand. The feeling that you might not be able to succeed and that you might get left behind is very suffocating... I understand exactly how you feel.
But we must NEVER give up! We must try our best to stay positive and hopeful and accept that improving and becoming successful takes a lot of time (as well as effort) and that just because we're a little slower than others, doesn't mean that we don't have the potential.
People mature in different times and ways, so a time when you'll evolve to someone who wants to work harder will definitely come for you, when you gain a bit of confidence in who you want to become and think about what you want your future to be like, what you want to fight for and seriously consider all the things that you need to do to get there. That's what happened to me, after 2 recent years of going through very depressing times and not knowing what the hell I was doing with my life, until I finally found the determination to work hard and take control of my future. "Light shines brightest in the dark", so sometimes you have to go through difficulties, and through fighting to overcome them discover a lot of things about yourself, your abilities and what you want. So, just stay strong and don't give up and eventually you'll find the light you're looking for.
Also, don't think about other people's expectations or other people's progress. It's very easy to want to give up when you're feeling those kinds of pressure, but you must remember that you are you and you follow your own path towards the goals you want to achieve, in your own time! It may take longer than others, but you'll definitely get there if you don't give up.
its really hard for me to start things but once i start them im good at keeping them going! its just i dont want to start because of thinking im not good enough but i know ill never be good enough if i dont try! so i need to try!
i kind of know what i want but im not 100% sure on it what i think i wanna do is be a voice actor >///< i typed this after i was finished recording some stuff i felt bad because nothing i recorded sounded good and i felt like nothing i ever record sounds good and i decided to try learning how to sing like 2 days ago and when i recorded me singing just to see how i sounded it was so awful!!!
even though i do think i wanna be a voice actor im scared of going to school for it what if i cant be a voice actor? i keep thinking stuff like "you dont need to go to school to be a voice actor" "it would help you a lot though so maybe you should go?" "but what if in the end i cant be one? i need a plan B" "but what? theres not really anything i wanna do" "but if i go to school for something else id probably go with that instead anyway" and i just dont know what to do but i wont give up!
its kinda funny cause when i was younger people would always tell me how mature i acted, but now that im a bit older eveyone thinks i act younger! like when i was 13 people thought i was 18 and now that im 18 people think im 13 //crys
im kind of embarrassed now >///< i wrote this when i was feeling kind of depressed im feeling better now though!
I understand how you feel and what it's like to doubt yourself and to be scared. I'm also at a time where I'm trying to figure out what I'm going to do with my future. I think if you really like something and you're interested in it, you should try to be brave and go for it, completely ignoring your fears. It's always good to have a plan B, and you should definitely keep an open mind for other things you might like, but I think it's also important to not let your anxiety of not having one right now, hold you back. From what I understand this has proven to be very important to you, even if you're not sure, so I think you should try it. If it things don't turn out the way you wanted, you can still choose other paths since you're still young, but I believe in you and I know that you can do it if you try. You do have a lovely voice after all. Hehehe~ >///< <3